Outside Me

I feel a tight knot of energy
beat against sound
a light I can't see
these hopes are unreal
and things I can't feel
like liquid on paper
dive into the real
Inside my eyes
inside of my mind
bleeding me dry---bleeding me dry
acid within me 
is making me cry
desperate and weary and making me cry
I can't see inside
can't be inside
beat down my door
and beat down my pride
lightening outside
outside me