Fertile Mourning

There are times that I hate you with my whole heart and soul
Your hurt stings deep
where I crave the damage

I have grown and healed and flourished in ways I never knew I could
that growth has continued...will continue...forever onward
with or without you

I owe unto to you a debt of deep gratitude
I wish you every happiness life can offer

And I hope that you know that our friendship is important in ways that no other could ever have been
And I hope that you can remember me fondly
And I hope that we will meet again.

I will keep a soft place for you in my life
You will be ever welcomed with arms and mind open to you
You will ever be granted asylum in my heart

with deepest love and sorrow
I remain yours

elan vital

hot and wild summer wind
whips madly through snarled hair
chases thunderheads to a distant horizon
beats back a dusky glare

palms up and open in greeting
welcome the squall inside
the breath of chaos to thirsting lungs
creation - life - abide

Ten Million Joys

Just today, I blew 10 million bubbles
and jumped in a pile of 10 million leaves
and when it rained, I splashed in 10 million puddles
and when I played, I skinned 10 million knees

Just today, I sang 10 million jubilant songs
wished on 10 million dandelions
I rode 10 million miles on my bike with no hands
and I made up 10 million new rhymes

Just today, I smiled 10 million smiles
and laughed 10 million laughs
today, I enjoyed my child's one childhood
and forgot that my own has passed

Entanglement Theory

I spiral inward; become one with name
give audience to musculature and frame
curl toward animus and mind
around the very center twined

then limbs divergent; unified
extremities will coincide
in labyrinthine consciousness will meet
and tangle in a sinuous sheet

I spiral outward; become one with sum
perceive the whole which 'I' comes from
reach toward ocean, earth, fire and sky
affirm connection, deity, and I